I had a strange thought.

Suppose I were to write a book about my life. Make it sound like a novel, not an autobiography. But using events from my life and using myself as a character.

What if no one believed that I was being honest? What if people refuse to believe that someone behaved/thought that way? What if they dismissed it (me) as an unreal fictional character?

And most importantly, why is there nothing I can do about that?

RONNIE JUST SENT ME SHINEDOWN SONGS TO REPLACE THE ONES I BOUGHT BUT LOST WHEN THE HARD DISK CRASHED RONNIE ROCKS.

My sister has just announced to all her MSN contacts that she just loves disturbing her younger sis. -_-

Both my lectures were e-lectures today so I had the day off.

Today's haul:

- 7 new albums at a clearance sale, which means lotsa good music (with advice from the music twin =D).

- A walk in the rain to Plaza Singapura from The Cathay.

- Alice In Wonderland and wild mushroom soup. "You used to be much more...muchier. You've lost your muchness." This, by the way, is grammatically incorrect.

- Took bus 14 on an impulse cos it came at once, got off at East Coast Rd at St Pats and walked along the park connector to Marine Parade.

- About to finish A Thousand Splendid Suns, though I should probably have concentrated on The Metamorphoses of Ovid. Ah well.

- Run Round Singapore tomorrow. It's an event to mark NTU's 55 years. I registered for a run at East Coast so I don't have to go all the way to school.

HAVE TO START ON ESSAYS!

gramophone FTW.

Last night was the final day of plays. Both Epiphany plays and Black Camel Theatre plays are finally over, two show days and a couple of rehearsal days each finally done.

You don't need alcohol to get high, just need the right bunch of friends and very little sleep per person.

Jenn and I were gushing about the moon on the way to the bus stop, Alina and Gerry were talking about something else ahead of us, Izzad and Hazwan were a little embarrassed I think. hahaha. But we finally sobered down a little on the MRT. It was almost 10 pm after all (though that's more like 6 in the evening nowadays), even the adrenaline that had been powering us the past few days was running out.

Me: I wanted to say that I think your hair is really cool.
Hazwan: Oh thanks man! You just made my day. Um, night. But today's not the best day, it looks better sometimes..
Me: HAHA.
Alina: -.-

....

Me: So where are you getting off?
Hazwan: I'm changing to the red line at Jurong, I live at ______. (I'm not protecting his identity. I forgot where he lives.) You live in the East right.
Me: How did you know?
Hazwan: You have the East look. =)

Hahaha so cool, for a second I felt like I live in the US/Europe where people can tell which part of the country you're from. (Walk It Out by UNK automatically started playing in my head. NOW EAST SIDE WALK IT OUT, NOW WEST SIDE WALK IT OUT..)

Went to the airport this morning to receive guests. Made a trip to gramophone at PP on the way home. Was looking for Boys Like Girls, but couldn't find it! =O BUT finally found Chris Brown's first album! PLUS I found Drake. But I'm saving the money for tomorrow, plan to go to gramophone's anniversary sale. No biz law lecture or HW111 lecture tomorrow! Which means I'm free tomorrow.

Walked home from Parkway in a drizzle, and made the cuffs of my jeans fray even further.

Movie with sister tomorrow!

Next time, Imma gonna scan my diary and put it up here instead.

Let me backtrack to the week after recess.

Monday: MB107 (Biz Law) presentation, meeting in the morning to finalise everything. FINALLY managed to borrow A Thousand Splendid Suns (by the author of The Kite Runner). SIFAS Orchestra rehearsal at 7.30pm.

Tuesday: Floorball, 4-5.30pm

Wednesday: Resume draft due, HL107 (Classical Literature) group rehearsal for presentation.

Thursday: HL107 Presentation. HL105 (Singapore Literature and Culture I) assignment due. KISS&TELL Series: Talk by Dr Lim Lee Ching, on Singapore poet Arthur Yap, and Dr Sim Wai Chew, on a local novel.

Friday & Saturday: Jon and Keith and I talked about Epiphany plays and assignments, it's a relief to know I'm not the only extreme-last-minuter. There was a bazaar at NTU! Bought some stuff. Knew it was a good choice when a couple of my friends asked me to get it for them too. SIFAS orchestra rehearsal/class.

Sunday: PA rehearsal.

(I just copied all that from my diary.)

Somehow managed to get my readings for the week done. The Elanor Wong play, half of The Republic, Hard Times, CS117 (Social Trends and Popular Culture) readings. Didn't touch biz law textbook at all. Thought it was a busy week but the following week was just as busy.

Monday: Prepare for HW111 (Mastering Communications) Assignment 3. After Biz Law seminar, Seok Peng and I went to the HSS library, and nearly doubled over in silent laughter over our plans of how to evict the guy sleeping in the centre of the seats we wanted to sit on. =D We didn't actually execute our plans, but the guy woke up of his own accord and walked away! SIFAS rehearsal: 7.30pm.

Tuesday: Psychology survey (we were paid). LitFest (Epiphany put up four plays) drama rehearsal: 8pm. (I was helping out backstage and made cool friends - Kularesh and Kabilan and Germaine and Jean.) Skipped SIFAS rehearsal.

Wednesday: CS117 Mid-Term exam. HW111 Assignment 2 (Resume Writing) due. Lester and I found that my shirt colour and his shoe colour matched. =D Jas was awesome as usual. Plays: from 7.30pm till late. Thank goodness for Kula. We took a late night walk after the plays were over to get closer to his Hall, and I dropped off at a bus stop near his hall. (It was my idea; I don't see why guys have to be the ones being nice all the time and waiting for girls' buses to arrive.) Not sure if there was SIFAS rehearsal.

Thursday: The plays were being held over two days but I couldn't help today. Rushed to SIFAS for rehearsal after lessons.

Friday: SIFAS orchestra performance. Phew, now that's done.

Saturday: Classes at SIFAS.

Sunday: PA rehearsal.

It rained on a couple of days. I got mildly drenched (on purpose of course). Lovely.

Readings I managed to get done: The Aeneid (YESSSSSS I finished it!), Mrs Warren's Profession, Conclusion, CS117 readings, HW111 Assignment stuff. Other random books.

This week has started off on a good note too. Dr Jernigan and Prof Van Der Kaamp are directing/producing plays this week and I'm helping backstage again. Met HW111 group in the morning, and LICHEE tagged along with Herrick (or rather, Herricka =D )! Love meeting her around. As in, Lichee. Managed to talk to the Ks and S after lecture. Did the CsIA greeting with Jas after HL105 tutorial. Rushed to WKWSCI to meet sister's friend Jal's friend Jun to record something for her Final Year Project. Rushed back to The Black Box for this week's plays rehearsals. Managed to call Sudarshan somewhere in the middle of today, pity I couldn't make it for his concert.

Got home around 10.30, it's 1.16 am now. Gotta finish reading Mrs Warren, think of a thesis statement for 103, do up the app form for the Internship and clear the house cos guests are coming on Thursday.

Heartbreak.

Have you any idea how it feels,

when a 13-year relationship ends in a day? A day of wandering and bargaining and compromise and POOF. It's over.

We started slow. I was unsure, but you taught me and I learnt a lot. We spent many hours, many many days together. I looked forward to your stability and how much fun you were even though often, I just used to sit by you. You helped me out so much.

We definitely had our ups and downs. You had your problematic days and I had my impatient ones. But things always sorted themselves out. You were really good that way.

But now it's over, in what I am afraid may be an impulsive moment.

Even if I did make a good decision, I'm gonna miss you sorely. The sounds unique to you, your smoothness. All those memorable conversations I had thanks to you.

On the 6th of March 2010, I bought my first laptop. Farewell, desktop.

Welcome to my room, laptop. You've got a lot to live up to.

The style used in this post is not original. It was inspired by Subra, who used it a couple of years back on his blog. (He was talking about stopping the subscription to the Sports channels. If I remember right.)

The Popular bookstore at NTU closed down at the start of the semester, and the new bookstore is just settling in. I happened to walk by today, and stepped in for a look.

There were a couple of tables with books selling at $2 each!

Obviously, I couldn't resist.

I bought:

1) The Age Of Innocence by Edith Wharton

2) Ramses - The Son of the Light by Christian Jacq

3) A secret for a friend!

=]

Went to The Black Box today, met Kabi, Sofia, Jia Yi, Jenn, Shafie( =] ), finally heard Shafie and Kabi speak in Tamil!

Jas and I now have our CsIA greeting =]

A bit of what keeps me going

2 days before 2000-word essay is due:

shreya says:

you there jas? how's 105 going?

i'm still in the starting stages =S

Hitsugaya Jasmine says:

high five homie!

):

shreya says:

*high fives gloomily*

Hitsugaya Jasmine says:

thankfully, i found The One (of selecting a poem external to those covered by sim)

but that's as far as i've gotten

how bout you?

shreya says:

that's great, dont have to worry about finding The One anymore

i've analysed the poems and all but i havent actually started typing

im not too sure where im going though, dont have a definite plan

Hitsugaya Jasmine says:

looks like it's gonna be a long night for the both of us

bummer

shreya says:

and and i wanted to ask you! have you got a facebook account yet?

yea man, totally =\

Hitsugaya Jasmine says:

there is no "yet"! i remain true to my conviction not to

shreya says:

WOOHOO

Hitsugaya Jasmine says:

hahaha

sarcasm there?

it's hard to tell on msn

shreya says:

nooooo

im not on fb either

Hitsugaya Jasmine says:

excellent!

(:

shreya says:

and the number of ppl who arent is dwindling rapidly =(

Hitsugaya Jasmine says:

yeah *wrinkles nose*

BUT

shreya says:

ah well. WE SHALL REMAIN TRUE

Hitsugaya Jasmine says:

as john said, it's hard to stand firm when one is alone BUT if one has a comrade....

shreya says:

HAHA

OHH YESSSS

Hitsugaya Jasmine says:

hahaha

shreya says:

*stands proud with a smirk*

Hitsugaya Jasmine says:

& i suppose it's heartening too to know one's comrade is about as much done with 105 essay as one is hahaha

sense of fellowship

shreya says:

hahahaha

Hitsugaya Jasmine says:

omg i didn't know you were capable of smirking btw

shreya says:

yes definitely, but 'comrade' sounds pretty communist dont you think

Hitsugaya Jasmine says:

it's not a very nice thing to do

hahahaha

shreya says:

HAHA

i smirk in a nice way?

Hitsugaya Jasmine says:

no such thing.

hahahaha

shreya says:

right. so i dont smirk. i grin.

Hitsugaya Jasmine says:

yes.

(:

'comrade'...

well 'comrade-in-arms' ain't communist

shreya says:

ah okay that sounds excellent

Hitsugaya Jasmine says:

take it in that context then

shreya says:

yep!

Hitsugaya Jasmine says:

just that it's tedious to keep typing so we'll shorten it to "comrade" hahaha

shreya says:

CIA!!

Hitsugaya Jasmine says:

*whispers* MAO FTW.

hahahahaha omg cia

shreya says:

*whispers back HE ROCKS MAN*

Hitsugaya Jasmine says:

HAHAHAHA

shreya says:

alright, cia, lets get back to work

Hitsugaya Jasmine says:

yes sir!

oops

maam sorry

force of habit

shreya says:

haha sir actually sounds cooler

Hitsugaya Jasmine says:

true

stupid gender associations

shreya says:

but yea ok, we'll get back to our work, ma'am

YEA

ah well

Hitsugaya Jasmine says:

let's use sir

shreya says:

we'll stick to sir? =]

Hitsugaya Jasmine says:

hahahaha

shreya says:

HAHA

Hitsugaya Jasmine says:

HAHAHA

shreya says:

true cias =]

Hitsugaya Jasmine says:

yeah

shreya says:

i mean

csia

Hitsugaya Jasmine says:

?

ah i see

looks hella weird though

shreya says:

hahaha

Hitsugaya Jasmine says:

CsIA

hahahaha

shreya says:

ok!

that works =D

right sir, back to work!

Hitsugaya Jasmine says:

let's do 105 & when in need of motivation... we'll type something here

kay?

shreya says:

YES SIR!

(im doing resume first though =S)

Hitsugaya Jasmine says:

btw i like "sieg heil" sounds cool somehow

is the spelling right?

*hitler salute*

shreya says:

what's that?

ohhhhhh

i thought it was just heil hitler

hahaha

with the arm out and all that

Hitsugaya Jasmine says:

oh perhaps

yeah i have an image of that in my head now

shreya says:

but lets create our own salute thingy

Hitsugaya Jasmine says:

i'm leaving off resume til the last possible minute

shreya says:

when we meet in sch!

Hitsugaya Jasmine says:

hard to do online leh

HAHAHA

shreya says:

haha i need to give a draft tmr =(

HAHA

EXACTLY

Hitsugaya Jasmine says:

although as lit students we should be good at IMAGERY

shreya says:

hmmmmm but it's subjective

won't work

Hitsugaya Jasmine says:

ohwell it's hard work & we hate that

shreya says:

hahahaha

so in sch then

Hitsugaya Jasmine says:

yeah (:

righto. me to 105. you to resume. meet here when dying & in need of reinforcement

shreya says:

roger.

Hitsugaya Jasmine says:

(don't hesitate to okay, like, out of fear of interrupting thoughts or anything)

shreya says:

(alright! you too, k)

Hitsugaya Jasmine says:

(:

Oh no, Graffiti's CD cover got slightly cracked today =(

And I just volunteered to write a movie review for one of the school papers!

Ok, back to work on the Resume and 105 Assignment.