Abstract Apologies

How i wish i didn't have to see the pain and fatigue in your eyes. All of you. And especially you. I don't know why you bring misery upon yourself. It's like you're clinging to a small strain of hope, that frays and frays, till it snaps, and then you fall. And you look imploringly, and I don't know how to help you. Perhaps, i should have just remained aloof and distant from the start? But no. I would never have been able to gain your friendship. And your friendship is worth loads, even if it did last very short. Pick yourself up, my friend. And i'm sorry about my helplessness. I would explain it to you, but would you listen? And i'm scared of scarring you further. I used to talk to you quite often. And now, it's scarcely a smile. I would take the effort, but you are hurt too much to try anymore. Someday i'll tell you everything, and hopefully, you'll listen. And believe. Like you used to.